the cure to heartache is yourself

people ask me, "why? he's a jerk and a man whore." there is no answer to that. my only excuse is i can't help it. can anybody help their feeling for somebody? no? thats what i thought.

so you subtly tell your friend that you kind of like them, all fine and dandy right? not quite. apparently it ruins friendships. yesterday was all sunshine and lollipops. today its like a dark thundercloud rolled in above us. i dont know if its awkward now or what, just that i dont like it very much. we cant even be just friends?